Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Worth the Wait (McKinney/Walker #1) by Claudia Connor



Goodreads Review




He broke her heart. When he finds out just how badly, it will break his too. Nick Walker found the love of his life when he was just nineteen.Found her.
Loved her.
Lost her.

It's been ten years since Nick watched the only women he ever loved walk out of his life. Now this FBI Special Agent will do anything to win her back.
But it won’t be easy…

Mia’s heart was shattered by Nick. They'll have to face their painful past if they want a future, including Mia's own secret about that day it all fell apart.
Do you believe in second chances?



I die everytime you walk away
Don't leave me alone with me
See, I'm afraid
Of the darkness and my demons
And the voices, sayin' nothing's gonna be okay, Heeyyy
I feel it in my heart, soul, mind that I'm losing
You, me, you're abusing
Every reason I have left to live.
- Under by Alex Hepburn - 
 
 
The ones we love the most we can hurt the worst. Words can cut deep saying no words at all can cut even deeper. Leaving a gaping hole in your heart, your body and your soul. Crippling your spirit your essence along the way. Loving that person is like muscle memory you just can't let go no matter how much you want to. 
Mia & Nick have an all-consuming love. A love that I haven't read about in a very, very, very, very long time. Mia & Nick hurt I felt all their emotions a long with them. How I wanted to give it 5 stars and this might sound completely insane but that deep ache that my heart felt? That deep ache my soul felt? Is destroying. I didn't want to be wrecked. I didn't want to have to take deep breaths to emotionally deal with their deep rooted love. A love that with time and over the years with being apart has only grown. 
Sometimes crying a river can't bring a man to his knees but that one rare tear that slips through can and change everything. 
So much hurt, so much pain and so much regret. It is too much hurt, pain and regret for me at times. Some parts of the book I just didn't want to continue because it slayed me and I am just an outsider looking in on their pain. Their past, their present and what the future might be if they stop looking back, stop feeling the guilt. It's not to be forgotten but at least to be forgiven.
 
 
 
If you're lucky you get that special someone if you're even luckier then you get to spend the rest of life with them well and if you don't? And that someone crosses your path for a second time then you get on your fucking knees and thank your lucky stars that fate intervened and has given you a second chance. 
I have been a fan right since the beginning and I read Worth the Fall so I am probably biased to say the least. I feel a reread coming on for this book. 
Ms. Connor knows how to write tearjerkers. How to worm her way around my heart and deep into my DNA. I won’t go to in-depth because this is a story that you need to feel yourself, make sure it goes to the marrow of your bone. After a night’s sleep I’m still gutted in some ways. 
All the Walker men deserve happiness especially after such a colossal large and tragic loss. And in all honesty? I can’t wait.